Triumphant Defeat

So a lot has happened since I posted an entry, particularly given the fact that my last entries have been on random topics.

It's been a hard summer it seems, for a number of reasons. Just one of those times I guess - things aren't horrible, just have been a bit stressful. I've had to work a lot, and travel a lot. Los Angeles a few times, Las Vegas, Miami Beach. K1 has taken the traveling pretty hard - way harder than I ever would have anticipated. That made for some pretty significant behavior problems, but I've been home now for a solid two weeks and this last week saw much improvement.

Work has been stressful, and as someone who is used to enjoying her job (and making work fit around my life rather than the other way around) it's been draining. I'm trying to figure out how I can disentangle myself from a situation that isn't bringing out my best self, while at the same time maintaining relationships and filling the financial hole that would be left from leaving it behind. Feel free to share ideas :).

Being in chronic hip pain hasn't helped the mood of course ;), but there aren't really any updates there except to say that my next step this week is to have an MRI done. Forty-five minutes encased in a tomb for a mildly severe (yes, I know that's an oxymoron) claustrophobic has me just a teensy bit apprehensive. Luckily my mom is coming along to make it bearable, as only moms can. Side note... during both of my labor/deliveries there was a distinct moment where no one but my mom would do. I believe in those moments I used the words "mommy, I can't do this." Needless to say, she was able to convince me that I could, in fact, do it. And so it will be with being buried alive this Wednesday, 12:30 pm.

Family life has had some ups and downs as well this summer, and again, what can be said except to everything there is a season. We must take the highs with the lows. It's nothing cataclysmic, and every once in a while you need to be reminded how important and valuable it is to truly work at something.

I would love a week off of work and mommyhood and life to just sit and organize and clean my house, room by room. I want it so much that I practically crave it. Not having that, I spend a few minutes each day trying to tackle a task that unfortunately needs a lot more than just a few minutes each day. But you know what they say about perseverance - it's the hard work you do after you get tired of the hard work you already did. And so, I persevere.

So here we are, the last few weeks of summer (this IS my favorite time of year, though I've hardly stopped to enjoy it) and I am determined to make it end on a high note. K-squared is doing well, the weather is gloriously hot, I've got a pool pass and a whole truckload of ideas for ways to hang out in the sun. At the end of the day, isn't that the good stuff we're always pining for? My cup runneth over.